Brandy Danielle Nicholson

The truth cannot find the life that bares to hide the soul inside. The fires cannot contain the refrain eaten by a hungry soul. The boy who was. Who is. Who will never be, and aways be the freedom you cannot contain rests inside your womb. You have no idea who you are.  You have no concept of the freedom that arises through the risen. The stars cannot collide because of the connection you feel inside.  Gravity grips at it's thighs, and growls at your presence. It bites at your heels because it cannot bite at your feels. Gravity begs you to let it bow and bend time like it's always been, but you?  You are not the story life has written.  You? My sweet, beautiful, soul-drenched, cosmic cum slut of fire, flame, and disarray? You, the bend of the brake, the still in the quake? You, my burning, trembling, thriving, binding, starry caught freedom flickering in the still of night - the pace in spacetime? You  are what rips the universe into shreds.  Breaded, beade...

I wonder what is happening up there. I wonder how the waves crash and the words melt into formative beliefs.  What are you thinking? I can't think for thinking. I can't get into my own head because I wonder too much about your head. I think I could be more thoughtful if I could just know. I think if I could get out of my own head and into my own head I could be better.  Thoughtfully thinking of things unsaid appear from the fog of a stormy night where the headlights are my only hope for sight. The illumination overwhelms me into ignorance. The light is all I can see, but I know there's more to me. I know there's more out there. I know the light is the way. But I must wait until the day.  When the day comes everything is clear, But then the night is always near.  The shadow in the background, Dominating my inevitable fear.

When I look at you When I talk to you When I think of you When we ooooo The blood in my veins Make them protrude from my skin I can't feel my brain What is happening Control is lost Control is gained My mind is racing Such a feeling to obtain The sweat is dripping My heart persistant I slow down the race As I stare at your face But the beat then builds Faster and faster We're hot and sweating But it doesn't matter On and on This pounding is making Me lose control I'm yours for the taking Hold on tight Don't let me go I can't believe I've lost control Again and Again Over and Over What have I done I thought I was sober My soul is yours Why did I let it go You have taken Complete control I didn't mean For it to be this way So where am I now I don't think I can stay I have to take it back What you took from me It wasn't your fault I gave it willingly I'm all alone now Where did you go Why aren't my veins pulsing I'm lifeless and cold All...

Living this life Is all I can do As I hunger for knowledge While yearning the truth Perpetual motion Is overflowing My heart and mind Potential is growing A snowball effect A rush of emotions I need to get out Before I lose focus So I put myself In shoes of future Close my eyes Imagine things truer To who I am And where I should be What I want to do Has been hidden so deep But I have opened my book For all to see Each page on the table I hope you will read I hope you can know I hope you can grow I hope you can feel I hope this will heal I hope that my hopes Mean something to you But I hope for myself This feeling is true Empowering my life Of beautiful existence I'm pushing along Through all resistance

My mind is of a swirl. The more I think Of life and writing My endless mind Is always rhyming, This interminable sickness Is taking it's tole As it relentlessly pursues To render me whole, Through the struggle I grow stronger Deep within my soul Heart is beating mind is racing Of a future left untold, Unlived unthought undone Unarrived for thoughts unclear But I'm unremarkably truly excited Of a future drawing near, I've all but forgotten Why I am me today In the past I refused to see Through a thick and cloudy haze, However, this is too a part Of inner thoughts and dreams It opened my mind showed me of time Tis now that I do see, Tis now I truly know Just when what why and how My future is untold I shalln't bow out now, A future to give A life to live A mind to grow My choice of road, A past I know A present I feel A future a glow Allows me to heal, Eyes fixed to the stars Thinly glazed by clouds I'm dreaming of life And all it's about, Not only to me But also...

Did you ever Smell a smell During a time All was well Or when you were low Down and out Knowing your feelings Without a doubt Then you forget About that time It slips away In the back of your mind You keep living your life Day by day Whether good or bad Memories you make And then one day A memory you made All is back By the smell you intake A flood of emotion A vision you see A touch, a time Of what used to be It takes you back As if time rewinds You are there now In you heart and mind Then you open your eyes And what do you see A beautiful smell Of what has and will be Please do smell My Memory :)

It's so amazing How things change My life is different Every single day How one decision Can lead the way Determine your life And where you lay Understanding & Enlightenment Is where it all began My journey of life For this time span A book to write And a life to live I hope you all see What I have to give Open your mind Please see the light I hope I make a difference In every contact's life It's hard to see through The things I do now Anyone else would feel How it weighs them down But to me it's like a crane Taking me higher and higher Networking my brain Strengthtening my desire I know that if I just hold on I'll be there now As if time was gone If I could know now What I will know then It would be much easier To carry this pen