Brandy Danielle Nicholson

I would like to contemplate, in depth, rationalities, analogies, and comparisions with someone now, soon, or anytime really. I've been taking these brain pills (lecithin) and despite the fact I just woke up, I'm snowballing into overload. Every argument I hear, every little thing I see wrong, I want to pick it apart. I can do it better. It would make more sense if I got my hands on it. I know how to fix this. But, then I step back and begin to question. Why do we (I) always try to make everything better when it is most obviously clear that it's an endless struggle. I mean nobody and nothing is perfect, right? See, I have this problem. It's called Devil's Advocate Disorder. I don't even reveal my opinion about anything, because every time someone else states their opinion all I want to do is disect it, make sure it's right or prove it wrong by taking the opposing side. And, honestly, I would like someone else to do the same to mine. I'm in my h...

When I look at you When I talk to you When I think of you When we ooooo The blood in my veins Make them protrude from my skin I can't feel my brain What is happening Control is lost Control is gained My mind is racing Such a feeling to obtain The sweat is dripping My heart persistant I slow down the race As I stare at your face But the beat then builds Faster and faster We're hot and sweating But it doesn't matter On and on This pounding is making Me lose control I'm yours for the taking Hold on tight Don't let me go I can't believe I've lost control Again and Again Over and Over What have I done I thought I was sober My soul is yours Why did I let it go You have taken Complete control I didn't mean For it to be this way So where am I now I don't think I can stay I have to take it back What you took from me It wasn't your fault I gave it willingly I'm all alone now Where did you go Why aren't my veins pulsing I'm lifeless and cold All...

How can you change Your brain to rearrange All of the things Floating in a sea The sea of the mind My fishes intertwined Swimming opposite ways While I'm trapped in a daze Perhaps the dream was right I just can't get through The signal has been lost But I need to talk to you Persistant to the end I'm never giving in Unless you make it known Your heart is made of stone This could be for you Or you or you or you But really it's for me So that my soul can breathe Anything I say You might underestimate The meaning I have behind Each and every rhyme What matters to me Is your reading this now That fills me with life In ways you can't know how So just keep reading If you like what you see And I'll keep writing For you and for me

My brain is clouded Mind is weary This place is cold Damp and dreary I'm trying to focus On things of necessity But what comes to mind Is you and my revelry You see I know That I can live without I'm living independent Of this I have no doubt But I've always been a dreamer I can't help but dream Of the future to come Of what things seem I base things on reason I wish fact meant more Analytical in nature It makes my brain sore This and that I'm overdoing Quid pro quo Never assuming Spilling out thoughts Playing with words Reading up on life Disposing the absurd Overcoming the madness That we call life Looking on to the future While paying my price Putting in my time Of work and effort Never overlooking What I can do better Trying to keep The past where it lay And courageously move on To a bright and brand new day Hope love joy peace All these things put my mind to ease Writing rhyming reading doing Keep my mind constantly moving Controlling my thoughts Never giving i...

Living this life Is all I can do As I hunger for knowledge While yearning the truth Perpetual motion Is overflowing My heart and mind Potential is growing A snowball effect A rush of emotions I need to get out Before I lose focus So I put myself In shoes of future Close my eyes Imagine things truer To who I am And where I should be What I want to do Has been hidden so deep But I have opened my book For all to see Each page on the table I hope you will read I hope you can know I hope you can grow I hope you can feel I hope this will heal I hope that my hopes Mean something to you But I hope for myself This feeling is true Empowering my life Of beautiful existence I'm pushing along Through all resistance

My mind is of a swirl. The more I think Of life and writing My endless mind Is always rhyming, This interminable sickness Is taking it's tole As it relentlessly pursues To render me whole, Through the struggle I grow stronger Deep within my soul Heart is beating mind is racing Of a future left untold, Unlived unthought undone Unarrived for thoughts unclear But I'm unremarkably truly excited Of a future drawing near, I've all but forgotten Why I am me today In the past I refused to see Through a thick and cloudy haze, However, this is too a part Of inner thoughts and dreams It opened my mind showed me of time Tis now that I do see, Tis now I truly know Just when what why and how My future is untold I shalln't bow out now, A future to give A life to live A mind to grow My choice of road, A past I know A present I feel A future a glow Allows me to heal, Eyes fixed to the stars Thinly glazed by clouds I'm dreaming of life And all it's about, Not only to me But also...

We are a compilation of what and who we know. In today's microwave generation of internet and smart phones, with such a large amount of many different people out there, it is rare and special to find someone who has been truly inspired. Most people today are inspired purely by others thoughts, actions, or opinions. Not that I'm saying this is a bad thing, because, in my opinion, everyone should research and learn from anything and everything possible; this leads you to your own inspirations or ideas(refer to first line of blog). However, when you take someone else's idea whether it be a greeting, a logo, words, or a design and claim it for your own that is just downright plagiarism. It doesn't matter the reason, and even if noone ever noticed wouldn't you realize you are leeching someone else's creativity due to lack of your own? "Look when I say 'don't think about elephants.' What's the first thing you think about?" "Elephant...

Did you ever Smell a smell During a time All was well Or when you were low Down and out Knowing your feelings Without a doubt Then you forget About that time It slips away In the back of your mind You keep living your life Day by day Whether good or bad Memories you make And then one day A memory you made All is back By the smell you intake A flood of emotion A vision you see A touch, a time Of what used to be It takes you back As if time rewinds You are there now In you heart and mind Then you open your eyes And what do you see A beautiful smell Of what has and will be Please do smell My Memory :)

It's so amazing How things change My life is different Every single day How one decision Can lead the way Determine your life And where you lay Understanding & Enlightenment Is where it all began My journey of life For this time span A book to write And a life to live I hope you all see What I have to give Open your mind Please see the light I hope I make a difference In every contact's life It's hard to see through The things I do now Anyone else would feel How it weighs them down But to me it's like a crane Taking me higher and higher Networking my brain Strengthtening my desire I know that if I just hold on I'll be there now As if time was gone If I could know now What I will know then It would be much easier To carry this pen

So many people take so many things for granted. Today after the most beautiful snow storm this area has seen in a long time, laughter, smiles, love, and fun was taking place right in my front yard. I used to see fun as something completely different. But, this was genuine fun. Myself, my brother, and my nephew made an amazing snowman! Later, my dad came outside and we had a snowball fight. Long after my face was bombarded with snowballs, I realized how much fun I really had. Now don't get me wrong, I love a good party and socializing with friends, but today I remembered what makes me the person I am today, family. These people are my heart. As much as I have been thinking lately about my career, my jobs, and money, it was good to get away from it all and be buried in the snow. These are the times that make winter worth bearing. On a different note... I've also been thinking alot about my path, and what it's gonna take to make this journey. I'm going to have t...

What a year. What a life. There is so much I want to say and so many thoughts flowing through my brain. I want to start out by explaining my reason for this blog. Now usually I don't like to explain myself, but right now I have my reasons and I want you to know them (whoever YOU may be). I want to be a writer. Writing is something I have always done without even trying, to me, it's effortless. Writing is one of the only ways I can express myself clearly. Paulo Coelho said "From the moment that you don’t fear to share your heart, you are a free person." and let me just say first, I have always had trouble expressing myself to others. But, I want to be free. I want to share my feelings and thoughts without fear of reprecussion, this is my first step to freedom. I have made a personal constitution (http://www.lyved.com/success/a-personal-constitution-the-way-to-make-your-resolutions-stick/) and I have every intention of sticking to it. Not only will this be my y...